Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Can't Sleep

It's 2 am and I'm still awake! Not only am I awake, but i am wide awake and there are no sheep or counting crows that can put theses eyes to rest. I hate not being able to sleep, but then again I am not a fan of the chemical induced sleep eiither. This insommia bug seems to be bitting more then ever lately as all the things that are happening in my personal or work life come to front and unfold daily. Insommia, on the other hand is something that can be useful too! It can be a great study time, since there is nothing and I mean nothing on TV between the hours 230am and 430am. Then the morning news and all the world is coming awake, to start their new day. I on the other hand have slept may 30 mins to 3 hours depending on the night and how bad the bug is bitting at my toes.

Yet, I am able to go 3 maybe 4 days with little to no sleep at all then by the 5th day all seems to crash, and that restful, peaceful sleep tends to find me and take me off to the land of dreams if I am so lucky. Pleastville bound in the world of dreams and rest for all. But, then again my mind won't stop or even if I can truely clear my mind I am not able to drift off to the clouds of neverland, because the insommina bug is there at my toes reminding me that tonight is a night that you stay up and sleep is just not allowed.

I have heard it said that warm milk, prayer, reading a text book on a subject that one just dreads will put one to to sleep. Nope, all they do is bore me to tears, and yet the milk is not an option either, unless I want a day of running to the bathroom from drinking one glass. So here we are, at 3am and not a care in the world, and not a bit tired tonight.

I have heard that it is during this time that God is trying to get our attention. Well, he has my full attention, since sleep is not going to visit me tonight. Now if I can figure out what I am supposed to be praying for or whom I am to pray for that too would be a blessing. I have sat here night after night and poured in God's word looking for the answers on pleasent slumber. I found the scriptures, claimed them as my own, and come to realize that it is in these wee am hours that I am longing for the Heavenly Fathers touch, a word from His heart. Something that will draw me in close to the holy of holies. In that place were there is nothing in the room but me and the Father or Jesus. A time where I draw unto Him, and He unto I, where I am totally encompassed in His love, joy, and peace! A place that one can only go when they press on in prayer, worship and seeking the face of the Lord. Yes, I have insommina and I miss my sleep, but I long for the wee hours of the morning where I am encompassed in the love of the Lord, where I feel His presence all around, and His arms there hold me is better then any night of sleep!

Monday, August 20, 2012

Bad Day

Have you ever had a bad day? A day when it seems like you are coming apart at the seams, and not all at once mind you, but rather a slow and steady unraveling as the day progresses. A day when everything is happening and you are stuck by anxiety. Now the anxiety is new and all of a sudden decided to bcome your best friend today and when ever it decides to show up, like at work, home, school, family time. Then all you want to do is hide under a rock and be left alone.

We all have bad days, and yes, some are wirse then others, but they do happen and to us all. The difference is that some of us have Jesus on our side. When this day progressess we can call out to him for HELP! Or Scream HELP if it matters all the same, God is there listening to the suttle whisper in the wind or the scream at the top of our lungs. He is there and can hear and is willing to listen at the times when we are in need of Him and His comfort, guidence and in all the stress or anxiety as it swarms around us like mad.

He is there at just a whisper of a prayer. He comes to His children who are called His beloved. He is there becasue He promises all us us who have come to know Him, that he will never leave nor forsake us. He gentleness is there, His love, His Peace and come along with the Joy in the morning. That Joy can even come at 3am if that is when it is needed. He gives us all His comfort and love without restriction, without rules or regulations. It is a love and a peace that is freely given to us because we are His beloved children and we belong to Him!

So when that day comes and all you want to do is hide under a rock and scream at the top of your lungs. Do you and call out to Jesus and He will be there with you in the middle of the storm and will comfort you and you will find that joy and peace that often comes in the morning!

Sunday, August 19, 2012

It's been a While.....

Wow, It has been a long time since I have posted, and the things that life tends to throw at you when you are not lookinng is amazing. From the frequent hospital stays to the true craziness that is happening at work, I'm not sure where to even start. Other then to say I am happy that I have a great Husband (@wschorp) and an amazing God to see me through all the rough patches.

It is during these times that we learn that we all have to rely on God's graces in our daily lives. It is when we scream why now, and question so much that is happening that we need to turn to the Father in Heaven and seek His face and His True Guidance in the times of need and trouble. It is when we look to God to hold our hand, and walk the path that we are on, even through it is a rough patch. Yet, after the storms there is joy in the morning and that Joy is Great.

His Joy is that of a true joy! One that no man or thing can steal from us because it comes from our walk with the Father in Heaven. It is a Joy that is not able to be described until you are there sitting with the Lord in that time of Prayer, Praise or just plain ole quiet time with Him. It may happen as you read a passage in the Bible that just speaks to your heart and you find that word of knowledge to move forward in that Joy that is deep within you that no man can steal. That Joy that is from God is the best Joy and it always come new to you and I in the morning!

Monday, December 19, 2011

Christmas Distractions

Distractions, distractions are every where this time of the year. There is Elf, Sants Clause Coming to Town, Happy Holidays and all the other movies and songs that focus our attention on Christmas, yet the meaning is left to fly away in the wind. There are more distractions as you walk into the stores, holiday music, yes even the lovely holiday / Christmas music they play while shopping is used to distracted you in the store. By playing Christmas / Holiday music in stores it has shown to increase sales, because you will buy more when and pick up one more gift.

Yet, as we wonder through out the day, and see the trees, all the lights and decorations of Santa that are placed through out the town, we are distracted form the true gift of Christmas. As we go about the day and take that routnie drive afer dark to see how the neighbors in town have decorated or into downtown to see the spectular tree and window fronts that are only up this time of year, we lose the true meaning of Christmas.

We as a society are distracted, we hustle and bustle, and go about our day without taking the time to stop and reflect on the true meaning of Christmas and the birth of our Lord Jesus Christ. It is so eay to be distracted in our daily life that it is easy to put the true meaning of Christmas aside and just focus on Santa Clause. Afterall, we have to get the tree, decorate it, hang the stocking with care, decorate the house, shop, wrap gift, make lists, watch the budget, decorate the rewst of the house inside and out, and send the lovely Christmas cards. There is so much that takes our attention along with having to hide all the gifts from little eyes that are peering into the closets to find those special things that are stashed away for Christmas morning.

Ever wonder what it feels like to God when our life becomes so full of distractions that we come to ignore him on a daily basis. How He feels when His dear children come to Him only on Sunday morning or when there is a need in their lives.  Ever wonder if it hurts Him deep within as He sits and watches you struggle daily with all those distractions that are occuring. As He sits there wanting to give you the peace and Love that you seek as you wrap, and decorate the house to celebrate the birth of his only Son, Jesus Christ. How a simple prayer is so effective that He hears every word and knows your every need and is wanting to provide if you would only take the time to talk to Him.

It is so easy to become so distracted that we lose God in our daily lives, not just at Christmas time but all year. How we busy ourselves and then fall into bed wanting to pray but would rather sleep those extra ten minutes then talk to our Lord and Savior. YEt, we long for God to be at home in our heart, but we get so distracted that we forget to open the front door. When all it takes is saying a simple prayer, reading a small Bible passage at home, in the car or on our mobile phones. May we all take the time this Christmas season to reflect upon the true meaning of Christmas, the birth of Jesus Christ, out one true Lord and Savior!

Monday, December 12, 2011

Holiday Tragedy

Christmas is approaching and it is coming rather quickly, especially if you have done any shopping at all. Yet, during the holidays we all tend to focus on the hustle and bustle of the season. The buying, wrapping of gifts and some even focus on the true meaning of Christmas which is the birth of Jesus. But what would you do if something terrible happened to you or your loved one during this time of year?

All of a sudden the shopping and hustle and bustle seems to fade. Then we stop and reflect upon our family more, we stop and take the time to cherish every person in our life and what they bring to us. It is in these moments near the holidays and tragedy happens that we want to run and hide. We can run, but it won't change what has happened to that individual. All we can do is be there for support and love them. Yet, we are able to do so much more.

We can PRAY! Prayer is able to change all things. When the doctor's are saying there is little to no hope or that it is a bleak situation we can run to God. We pour out our prayers to Jesus, and ask His hands to heal the situation and the person. Then we wait, we wait for the miracle to happen. We believe that God is near and that He loves all His children. He would not want us to suffer or be afraid in the times of tragedy. It is in those very moments we cry out and His arms are open wide.

We pray, and pray some more. We then seek out all the prayer warriors that we know to pray for what is going on. We have extreme faith in those moments of need, yet, the rest of time we believe just not as strongly as when we may want something from God. This indeed is a sad statement, we run to God only when we are afraid, and need Him to do a miracle! The rest of the year we travel through the days, weeks, months, and go about our day without a second thought of what God wants from us or wants us to be doing in our life.

If we pray through the good times and thank God for all that we have no matter how small, He will be willing to give us so much more. If we run to Him when things are only sideways and expect Him to show up, then ignore Him the rest of the year, what kind of Children are we? Are we the type of people that only call a friend when we are in need, or want something? Or we call to say Hello and check in to see how their life is going, to share with them the good and the bad. God, is there and is always near. He sits and waits daily for you to talk to Him. He is there tugging at your heart as we go through the days and the hustle of preparing for Christmas.

The question is if something was to happen, would you call out to God for healing, guidance or would you rely on the what the doctors are saying and wait to see what will happen. If we reach out and continue to reach out and know that God's hands are near, holding all close to His heart, that His angels are all around all the time would you act or say the same things, knowing God is sitting in the room with you?

God performs miracles and Shows his Healing power on a daily basis. He is there in the ICU with the patient on the vent, the one struggling to hang onto life as we know it. He is there in the middle of it all, the question is are you willing to let Him be a part of all that is going on or do we handle it all on our own? His healing power is near, and praying, talking to God works, I know first hand. I've seen God heal when they shouldn't have lived through the night. He is a Big God and He is near. Reach out and take the hand of the one who came to earth to love and heal you!

Monday, November 28, 2011

Lost the Christmas Joy?

So Christmas is around the corner and all the hustle and bustle is upon us. Yet, some have lost that Christmas cheer! It's become a chore to get out the door, let alone be happy about the Christmas season! It's a great day and friends, family, food but that joy seems to be lost somewhere in the flood of decorations that are everywhere ! You can't walk into a store without seeing something of Christmas, stocking and Santa !

Yet, the blues have settled into your heart and there. Is just no more room for all that Christmas joy! All you want is to get through the days and make it into the next year, cause good things will be there in the days to come. So can we just skip all the joy and move right on to the new year?

Sadly, no! We have to go to mass and church and hear about the joy and the true gift of Christmas! We go back to God in theses times when all our joy is lost to find hope once again! It is in Christ that we have hope, live and true joy! All others are superficial and will let you down. Any other joy is just a temporary fix and will fade! Yet that joy from the Lord is always present. It's there when you are blue, green or any other color. It tends to be masked by things of the world when we are caught up in everything but God ! When we lose sight of Him and who we are in Him that our joy tends to fade and we focus solely on worldly things!

We children of the Lord we are able to have the security and the love of the Lord; along with His joy at all times in our lives. We know that His live and guidance will help us through all circumstances when we cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel! His light is there and if we reach out and take His hand he will guide us to that never ending love and joy that only He can give! It's a joy and love that will guide you through all things.

So as we walk into this Christmas season we are able to reach out and find the hand of God there waiting to show you the joy of the season. More the. Giving and receiving gifts, rather the joy of the the Lord in the birth of Jesus! In Him we have love and joy that will never cease if we are willing to reach out and take His hand to walk with Him this Christmas season.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

4 Weeks

There is a whole 4 weeks until we celebrate the birth of Jesus. It is the most wonderful time of the year. A time of sharing and giving and some recieving of wonderous gifts. Yet, it is the most hetic time of the year as well. It is a time when we all rush to accomplish all that we need to do beofre Christmas eve or Christmas Day. A time when we find all of our time is taken up by cleaning, shopping, baking, writing out cards, mailing presents to those who are not near during this time of the year. Yet, there is more to Christmas and these four weeks then we realize.

It is in these four weeks that we begin to really prepare our hearts to recieve the love of the Heavenly Father and that of His gift of Jesus. In this time we should be seeking God in an more intimate manner as we are preparing to celebrate his vigin birth into the world and all that it has to offer us as Christians. It is during this time that we are able to reach out to those who are in need, hurting and really share that Love of Jesus with them. Christmas can be a hard day for many individuals and families who are hurting and are afraid to show that deep hurt and pain. By showing them the Love and that gift if Jesus we can share with them a piece of our heart and a part of our joy that is always within us because of the Hope that Jesus brings to our lives.  We have this joy because of that personal relationship that we have with Jesus, and knowing He is there when we cal or cry out to Him!

It is in these four weeks that we are so wrapped up in the presents, baking, cooking and others things that we have to do to fully prepare the family and home for the glorous day that we often overlook so many things. We often forget that there are famlies out there that are really struggling to make ends meet, or if there children get a gift at all it will be a miracle because right now all they are focusing on is keeping them in there home. We can be a blessing to them and so many others in Christmas season. We can pick one of the tags off the tree at the mall, in the church and bless that child, adult or family in a manner that they would not be able to do on their own. We can get that tag and find a gift, but what if we blessed them in a manner that they would not expect, if they ask for a coat, get the gloves, scarf and hat that goes with it. Pick up a couple of extra outfits if the child needs clothes, you don't know long long they have to last that child and it could be close to a year before they get something new. Or when you buy that barbiew get some accessories that go with it. That child will be blessed and so happy on Christmas morning because you took the time to give to them. We can give to those in the parish as well, the sisters and priest who work so hard to keep things running smoothly at the church year round and never ask for a thing in return. They rarely get a thank you, or positive feedback. Take the time bake an extra set of cookies for them, or pick up a gift card for something you know they like. If you are unsure take the time to email the church office and ask what cookies, brownies or what their favorite store is and bless them in that way to say thank you for their service to you all year.

By giving of ourself to others, God takes notice. He sees when we are there helping those in need, and will give that blessing back to us in ways that we could never expect. By giving to those who have less, those who are hurting by giving them time to talk to you, you are giving them a piece of God's hope and love. We are after all His children, and we are to reach out and help those who are in need. If we know of a need and cannot meet it, help them get in touch with others who can guide them in the right direction, and take the time to call them and see how they are doing during this wonderous time of the year. It is amazing to see how much one can belss others in these 4 weeks if we take the time to reach out to those around us.